Religion....................my ass!!!

It's a weird feeling to have; flattery! I was quite flattered being hit on by someone yesterday. Makes you feel special, wanted and significant once again. like all sane human beings, we all seek some form of acknowledgement. I do it through trying to be the best at what i do, which hasn't been that successful in the past couple of years. I have experienced a new burst of purpose in my life with school. The excitemnt of learning something new, the challenge of finding the intrinsic meaning of things and life. ah! Life,...is what you make it they say. Maybe so, but at times it just gets exhausting. Friendship and human relationships exhaust me. I want to run away to drown my obligations of human interraction.A good friend tells me that we were created to worship God. why would you have people conceive, be brought into this earth to worship you, isn't that just plain selfish manipulation. I am tired of the so called quest for life, deeper meaning of who you are. what is good and what is not. Why can't it all end. Every human on their own, every 6 billion of us in the planet finding our own place to settle, no one aloud to conceive or bear children. Just let the population stagnate. I just feel it is a waste of time bringing people to earth to just be destined to worship God. That's selfishness and abuse of humanity. Why the hell was i made to be here. i find it so unfair, it's not right to subject any creaure to violence, confusion, racial discrimination and other crap that arise from misconstrued cultural understanding. Once again it is said that our differences are deliberate by God, as in............................what is this some sickening nightmare called a conspiracy theory that a supernatural being gets kicks out of! what a waste!!!